Don’t feel bad, it’s pretty overrated.
The first one I got my adorable little robot girl got rule 34’ed with a panty shot.
The second one was okay but they didn’t really pair me with people on my skill level as they said they would.
You could always just put your oc on the oc plaza thread to get a drawing of them.
Finasty
I get it why you dont get scouted, some of your art are different from your current artstyle, but yeah, it's sad that another person cant joined secret santa